It's funny, because after that encounter, I realized how precious life is and decided to enjoy each sexual encounter to the fullest. I hope each lover I've had leaves me desiring to be please others to the fullest.
The last time I was with a boy like this I edged him over and over til he finally cried, literally. I asked him if he was ready to make me happy. He didn't understand, but I turned and whispered, fuck your cum into my me. He did and then cried again as he told me that "he loved me."